Wednesday, October 19, 2005

quick link

http://www.xfm.co.uk/Article.asp?id=121718 go here for the ben folds 'jesusland' video with Matt Lucas.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Child Protection?

Was reading someones blog about Harry Potter and began to think, as I often do...WWJD? not what would Jesus do, but the other big JC in my life, Jayne Crossman, my wonderful wise mother, who has an instinctive knowlege of all things child friendly and an instinctive hatred of Harry Potter.

Her objections are mainly spiritual, as were many of her objections to much of my early childhood viewing - Thundercats, turtles, he-man, ghostbusters, simon and the witch, the list goes on...As much as I love and respect her from trying to protect us from things that may mess our heads up, I am still terrified of the dark, strangers, spiders, Dogs, Armpit hair, noises in the night, Birmingham, and most other things.

My thoughts were this. Once we have our own offspring, how far should we go to protect them? it seems that society today is all about risk assessment, and avoidance of litigation, which seems to be taking the fun out of a lot of things. as much as much protected us from what we watched on TV, the rest of our time was relatively care-free, and on the odd occasion we got hurt playing, we learnt to get over it (and to sing Jesus take the pain away!)

It seems now that children are no longer allowed to play games that have no educational benefit, or that run the risk of causing harm in any way shape or form (see lucindas 'conkers' Blog). There are also plans, in Birmingham at least, to stop any Christian Holidays being celebrated in Schools to avoid offending those of other faiths.

Is this political correctness gone mad? or is society such that we need to take these measures now? How far do we go to protect our children?

Monday, October 17, 2005

thoughts for the week

have had a wonderful weekend courtesy of the Singlehurst family, and am now enjoying a monday off! thought I'd start the week on some relatively lighthearted notes.

Firstly....for those of you who get home from work before tea time: watch neighbours. even the gurdian has said that this week is the best thing on telly THIS YEAR!! its the 20th aniversary, so old cast members: Doug Willis, Phil Martin, Joe Mangel are all back in it, looking like they've been locked in solitary confinement since they left the soap and cant believe they are lucky enough to have human contact again, even if it is with Harold Bishop. So miss it, miss out!!

Secondly...Jon Matthews has suggested that my thoughts are worthy of publishing, but I am lacking in ideas. so suggestions please for a book. I do intend to have JK Rowlings wealth by this time next year, so make them good (I will share the proceeds - maybe)

Monday, October 10, 2005

The hills are alive...

how come nuns are so wise?

just read justyns and beckys musings and I think they lie in a similar thought pattern. this quote from mother Theresa came to mind...

'We become closer to Christ by becoming closer to others'

That is to say firstly, intimacy with others helps us understand what may be characteristics of God or Jesus. and secondly, intimacy with God (and perhaps inner peace) can only be found by looking outside ourselves.

I have often found that spending huge amounts of time thinking about stuff like 'how far I am from God' and 'how I'm never going to be truly holy' (two Christian concepts that, In my humble opinion, Suck ass) only leads to greater discontent with how my life is at present (perhaps what jus is feeling?) . when I take the focus off myself, I find much greater peace (other than the times when I read about global warming or free trade!).

In short, since un-becoming a christian, I've actually felt closer to God cos I'm so much less preoccupied with becoming the perfect Christian (though lets face it I was so close).

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

I cant get no sleep

working nights is ok, its just the first few normal days afterwards I develop horrible insomnia. even sudoku doesnt work as a sedative. And if insomnia is bad when you are single, lying in the same bed as someone who is obviously having a lovely refreshing nights sleep is not fun.

But it does give you space to think. and in between interviewing myself about the difficult second album that I am soon to be releasing and imagining myself on wife swap I managed to have some rational thoughts.

Firstly: Rationality and religion.
Being a very emotional being, I am questioning at the moment the role emotion has in our relationship with God.

I've spent probably the last year removing emotion from my beliefs to fully examine where it all comes from. why do I believe what I believe etc. But now I think its time to start putting it back together.

I fully believe that most 'encounters with God' have some emotional manipulation attatched to them. in an environment where people are whipped into a frenzy you are always going to feel something. However, I dont want to become cynical. I'm sure I've had experiences of peace in still quiet places by myself, can that be explained as emotional manipulation?

I guess what I'm trying to work out is where does emotion figure in our relationship with God. can we have emotional experiences (i dont mean crying and screaming I just mean experiences of 'feeling' God rather than rationalising) without being able to explain them as 'just talking to ourselves' or emotional manipulation?

I think this is a largely girlie problem. speaking to different people it seems that men have no problem doing away with the emotional side of faith, whereas for women this is the side of God they most relate to and most enjoyed as evangelical christians. So loosing a God of emotion is heartbreaking. how does is all work?

Also...
bit of fun now, I enjoyed Vic's quiz on her website, and I know that if theres one thing that everyone loves it is talking about themselves. I love reading the guardian question time each saturday, so I thought I'd let us indulge ourselves further! (I've also answered it myself - my narcissistic tendancies run deep!)

1.What is your idea of Perfect Happiness?

2.What is your greatest fear?

3.What has been your most embarrasing moment?

4.What is your most treasured possession?

5.What do you dislike most about your appearance?

6.Who would play you in a movie of your life?

7.What is your most unappealing habit?

8.What is your choice of fancy dress costume?

9.Cat or Dog?

10.is it better to give or recieve?

11.To whom would you most like to say sorry?

12.What has been your biggest dissappointment?

13.How do you relax?

14.What song would you like played at your funeral? (dont worry, its not a threat!)

15.How would you like to be remembered?

Saturday, October 01, 2005

my blogs broken

help!
my blog appears to be deleting posts and not saving addresses. I've been doing everything the same as usual but it all seems to be not saving. Help!